Learning, Growing, Evolving.
I had wanted a regular job for the longest time. I think it was the fact that it was predictable, simple, straightforward and the best! I got paid at the end of the month. I was happy, had awesome colleagues, a very good boss and a workspace that was very warm and felt like home. Nope, this is was not a Utopian state. I could never relate to the struggles of a toxic work environment, I had a good deal, and then I wanted more.
When I put in my resignation letter, I had no plan, (I definitely learnt a few lessons along the way, maybe I would write about that some other time) I was unsure of what direction my career was going to take, was I going to be one of those people who abandon a profession they actually are qualified in? and then pursue their “childhood dreams” of being a writer and releasing a book?. The idealist in me saw the latter through my “photochromic lenses”. I would write, get paid and my blog would become successful. It was the easy part the hard part was that I had no plan, strategy or an idea of how difficult writing is(something that is sometimes overlooked)and of course the fact that procrastination was alive and well and too many times was disguised as “not having anything to write about’’. The stark difference between preparing documents in my previous job and writing casually without a ‘sterner’ or a serious tone.
It was as if I had to forget how I had been writing for almost four years and switch to a more playful tone. That in itself is a skill that I had no idea existed. Still I was willing to learn, and some days were definitely better than others. The awareness that I had to learn self discipline, address the fact that I had a procrastination problem, and I needed to deal with it have been some of the most important lessons I have learnt. The people I have met along the way, connections I have made have all taught me that there isn’t a thing I can’t do if I am determined to do it.
This year has seen me go back to my professional career, and again it is a role that is different from my previous role. It has felt like starting over when you are thrown in a different direction. As for writing, it is still a part of me (you are reading this), And I am still writing , just in a different capacity, but still with an opportunity to learn, improve my writing skills and maybe just maybe I would write the first chapter of the book I have been writing in my head.
